Thursday, February 23, 2012

Where have I lost myself?

It’s been such a long time since I last posted something.

Lately life has not been a bed of roses…neither was it so terrible. 

Often I wanted to come here and just write down my turmoil but then I would rather shut myself in my own little world and suffer in silence.  

The past months were eventful in the sense that I met a few people.  I discovered and understood my friendship towards some special people and at the same time I realised that deep down myself, I do not know where I am heading and what I really want.

Today itself, my dad asked me to be more positive.  This is something that many people have told me about.  I am too negative in life and believe me; a negative approach in life will never lead you anywhere far…  Ok, so to be positive?

At times I just wonder how to change myself and adopt a more positive attitude and show some more self-confidence in myself?  

Hell…life has not always been easy, with lots of downs than ups…but yet I have been able to face it all and I am still going on.  Yet at times I feel so weak and say to myself that this time I won’t be able to face it all.  But when I sit back and think well…there are many people who are in worse situations than mine, then why am I complaining on petty things?

There comes my inspiration then to move on in life…

Today when I was going to work in the Bus, I was just thinking about my life…about how I should let go of the past and of its demons and how I should really concentrate on my life NOW and try to make a better future of what is left to be lived.

Well, every time I say the same thing but do not keep up to the promise.  But I will try to be more regular in my writings and come up with some interesting things…

I am still thinking how to improve my blog…what to post and I should admit that often the inspiration is not there…

Anyway beautiful people…..keep safe

Loads of love



  1. You know, saying that you shouldn't complain because other people have it worse than you do, is not a reason. You ARE allowed to complain as much as you want to. It is your life. Nobody can compare what you're going through to what a kid in Africa is going through. The situations are different, and in both cases, people are sad.

    You have the right to be sad. You have the right to be negative. But don't wallow.

    Sending positive thoughts
    Sonia x

  2. Thanks least one person understands me and I feel less guilty when I complain....

  3. Amazing blog and very interesting stuff you got here! I definitely learned a lot from reading through some of your earlier posts as well and decided to drop a comment on this one!